22:21 thoughts..

its 10pm, and I can't sleep. I'm wide awake.

looking at those doc marten's boots. want it. so bad.

Hands on Deck - Waking Ashland is playing on my laptop over and over again. 

hmm. what is he doing?

does he miss me? does he think of me?

i don't think so. stupid me. 

can you just stop thinking of him, dee?

and now, Copeland - Chin up is playing. 

'you break your neck to keep your chin up."

u really have to do that, dee.

chin up. get up. live your life. pick it up. 

shit. 

pray, and everything will be alright. 

expectation is killing me

ARGH. fckin visa documents...

can't get enough of Give Me Love by Ed Sheeran.

yeah give me love, boo. 

'oh these times are hard

yeah they're making us crazy 

don't give up on me baby'

The Script - For The First Time

but u gave up on me

and yeah your friends are making us crazy. dammit. 

fck this situation.

Secondhand Serenade - Awake is very depressing. 

and Secondhand Serenade - Pretend, too. 

'while you have your agenda, a life to persue' 

I'm starting to like this 'ambient' music genre

Sigur Rós - Ara Batur. 

don't cry, dee... don't cry

it's 22:32 now. 10 mins to write this depressing post?

oh please.

good night, folks.

it's just me being depressed. 

being pushed by my own life. 

sad. 

My Chemical Romance - I'm Not Okay. 

bises

talking to myself

slow down, you crazy child...
He's nothing, He was a blessing for you, but now, he's just another lesson to learn.
say a prayer, and you'll be fine
you have faith in God, that God will take your hand, and lift you up.
everything's happen for a reason
God wants you to learn something
to show you the wrong one before you meet the right one
to show you how perfect love can be
and to show you that sometimes, love can hurt you too.
have faith.
believe.
don't give up.
God has a bigger plan for you
God knows which one is perfect for you. so have faith.
life is not always about finding the answer
all you have to do is be happy
be happy and carry on. because life goes on
although it's getting heavier,
you have so many people to be loved for.
maybe God wanna show you that it's not just him that important for you
you have your family, you have your friends
and you have God, of course.
God wants you to be back to him
to be thankful, to be right.
God will never let you down
God heals you
He has finished your problems.
don't make it harder. just let go
release
let it be
and you'll be fine

bises,

D

*note : it's just me being crazy. to calm down myself :D

cheers