you deserve someone who listens to you

hears every words and know what to do 

when you're feeling hopeless, lost, and confuse

there's somebody out there who will.

- A Rocket to the Moon

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a deep talk with my girl

hey guys, it's me again.
just got home.
talked with my best girl today.
had a really deep talk.

i am facing a big problem now.
i have no idea that i will face this kind of problem someday, somehow.
but shit happens, right? hahah :p

so i talked with (call her P) today.
and she knows me too well. :')
i couldn't lie to her.
i told her everything. like literally. everything.
cause we haven't met in a year or more i think.

and i thank God, i have this girl as my best friend.
i think she reads my mind hahahah.
however,
she told me that ;
stop saying no to people that try to come in your life. 
someday you must and you will make yourself 'more open' to other people. 
cause in the end, you'll need 'em.

jleb.

20 it is!

so i'm back!! with a new age, left my teen ages, but the same behavior hahahah.
i actually don't know what to write. it's just me being banyak mau and can't sleep. oh well.

so, it's me, not ready for the future!
not actually ready for these questions..
* udah-punya-pacar-belum?
* wah bentar lagi mama kamu mantu dong?
* lulus kuliah kapan?
* abis kuliah, terus mau kerja dimana?
* nggak mau kerja di Perancis dulu???

ok guys, S L O W D O W N! huhu but it actually makes me think. sooner or later, i have to face them and get that shit together and actually BE SOMEONE. who?
i don't know.
yet.

for now, i just have to live my life and learn more. why?
cause i've spent so much time and money attending Ferrandi, so it's my responsibility to be a good one there, and make something.
and not galau with that pacar-less thing. i mean, hello???? que sera, sera huh???

since i'm 20 y.o already, i'd like to make some wishes. for myself. hehe. and i'd like to share it with you.
* I hope that God gives us [me, family, friends] a big amount of happiness!
* I hope that everything goes smooth and fun like eating oreo ice cream! wait... it's not smooth. it's  a lil bit rocky, but well, c'est la vie~
* I hope that God gives the unfortunate people, a lot of food and blessings. 
* and I hope God forgives me, for all my sins, in those nakal-teen-years hahahah

so that's all. so-really-not-deep wishes, but cheered me up heheheh.

gotta go now.
to bed.
and cheers for 20!

bisous,
D